Complete.

“Complete”

Incomplete it all began
The broken state that I was in
I wished that I was someone else
Cause’ I was lost inside myself
I started seeing who I am
The day my life with you began
You clearly solved the mystery
That finding you meant finding me.

God, I’ve fallen to my knees
I’m bowing at your feet
I give you all of me
In you I am complete
It’s all because of love
I’m not who I was
I’m who I meant to be
In you I am complete

God who doesn’t need at all
I heard your voice I felt your call
It’s echoing I cannot shake you off.
The stars that shine they bear your name
They sing the song that gives you praise
You’ve captured me
My heart is lifting off

God, I’ve fallen to my knees
I’m bowing at your feet
I give you all of me
In you I am complete
It’s all because of love
I’m not who I was
I’m who I meant to be
In you I am complete

I’ve got to tell the world about the things you’ve done
I want to shout it out, I’m gonna live it now
Amazing grace is why I’m singing

God, I’ve fallen to my knees
I’m bowing at your feet
I give you all of me
In you I am complete
It’s all because of love
I’m not who I was
I’m who I meant to be
In you I am complete

-Kutless

This song is so amazing. I heard it on the radio and can not shake it off. Its amazing how God has been using music lately to speak to me and remind me of His truth every morning. North Carolina was a great break before school kicks in again. I really did absolutely nothing aside from catch up with my Big Kim and her hubby and watch “The Office”. I never really gave that show a chance but now that I have I am hooked. I tried to catch up on my prayer journal and reading on the flights but everytime I tried to read I got airsick. So I gave up and slept. I did get some time to read since I spent most of the weekend in my Pjs hunting down Southern Sweet tea places.

It just hit me that school starts in a little over a week. hmm and I am not ready in the least. Guess I’ll go get my books and notebooks Wednesday. I’m a little anxious because I know this semester is going to be a challenge. I am taking 20 credits, 6 classes. 2 of which are math and I hate math. So I’m trusting that God wil get me through this semester and help me learn to manage my stress and teach me how to balance my time and commitments.

I love when God reminds me who I was before He found me. I need to hear it at least once a week because it humbles me. Over the last maybe 3 months God has turned my heart from feeling guilt and shame at my former self into feeling grateful for grace. Does that make sense? There was a time when I thought back to how I lived my life and I was shattered with guilt and then a pattern of trying to make up for it. I would try to do little things when I was in seasons of guilt like extending my prayer times or serving more. I didn’t even realize I was doing it. It was one quiet time about 3 months ago that God asked me “why are you setting aside an extra 30 mintues this week?” Then a friend gave me a book that spoke on the topic of grace.

Since then when I think back on who I used to be I thank God for the testimony I have, for bringing me out of myself, for saving me from myself. I am grateful God had His hand on my life because there are so many foolish things I did that could have runined or ended my life. I look at each stumble as a chance to relate to others who are on that same road. I pray God continues to reveal more of His plan for my life and helps me see how every road that I toke was for a reason and will be used ot glorify Him in the end!

“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this not from youselves, it is the gift of God–not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do ” (Eph. 2:8,9).